So I don't know if I will get around to that second balance post I had promised. You can tell I am definitely not an expert in that area. Life is crazy busy, but the funny/ironic thing about it is I am feeling more balanced. Some things have changed in my day to day life and that is good. I feel that overall I am getting much more done . . . . I expect eventually I will be able to incorporate my blogging into it as well.
Almost a year ago I was feeling rather inadequate, especially in my role as a mother. I was at a soccer game and Little Miss was playing in the sand in the volleyball court. In that quick moment I had the impression that I am supposed to be her mother. There is something about me that makes us a good match and I will be able to take care of her.
Back in March we had a stake relief society birthday celebration. I think I had only been to church twice, didn't know very many people. As I was sitting there listening to the program, in this big group of people and feeling all alone the words came very clearly into my mind- "You are enough."
I am obviously not perfect (refer to paragraph 1), but I am finally learning and accepting that I can still fulfill my role and reach my potential without being perfect.
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This is a quaking aspen in our backyard. Our neighbors told us that it was struck by lightning some years ago. I have thought about this tree and it's value and compared it to myself. I think we all believe that in some way or another we have been struck by lightning (and since I am such a crazy Jane Eyre fan I love this idea).
One day when we were out back my hubby snapped this photo of a wood pecker in our imperfect tree. Did the bird care that the tree was struck by lightning? No. From that angle you can't even tell what damage the tree has received. The imperfections are not getting in the way. The tree is providing shade and a sanctuary for the birds. It is still of value and worth.
For those who may be struggling with feelings of inadequacy, I hope you will believe me when I say that you are enough. It is because of God's power and love. Through Him we are enough.
